vmb writes on her blog:
They say it takes three months to get over someone. Huh. That basically means my summer is fucked.
And, it just may be that that’s where I am headed. Olivia says it’s okay that my feelings towards Nomi are a mix of things, healthy and unhealthy, and not purely romantic attraction, shared values, future compatibility and such (my ideal scenario with Nomi or anyone else). But…that’s where I am headed aren’t I now. Where Veronique is. It’s gonna hurt like a bitch. But I signed up for this by being open and vulnerable and basically an adult.
I see it. I see these signals from Nomi. One, there’s nothing here. Two, there’s going to be nothing here. I need to…move on.
As soon as I’m settled into The Big City in few months’ time, I’m going to make more friends and distract myself from her. Find more events to go to, cafés and bars to hang at publicly and make or wait for good old fashioned “Hey, I like XYZ about you. Do you wanna grab coffee sometime?” — and so on.
Maybe I should stop texting her so much. Sending her so many reels. Sharing so many songs. Thinking so much. Giving gifts. Maybe just the one last one since I already have had it in the works for a bit?
Maybe I need to walk away.
No reason to stay is a good reason to go.
🎧 David Nail, Sarah Buxton — Let It Rain
🎧 Camila Cabello — Something’s Gotta Give